Today, Janine is left with this heartbreaking, final memory of her eldest son. Sadly, Nathan took his own life at 31 years of age.
Janine describes Nathan as, “a man who had lived, loved, married and fathered two children”. For Janine, it’s these memories that make his death so unexpected.
Janine and the rest of Nathan’s family were consumed not only with the pain of loss, but with an overwhelming and confusing mix of feelings—guilt, anger, fear and blame. And they had so many questions.
Trying to make sense of her loss, Janine joined a Wesley LifeForce Network—a nationwide program that trains people to recognise the warning signs of suicide and to understand how to offer support, before it’s too late. It was through the support and action of this Wesley LifeForce Network that Janine found the strength she needed to keep going.
What pains Janine the most is not having the opportunity to say goodbye. “I was there when my son took his first breath,” she says. “But not there when he took his last. My son left this world alone.” Suicide leaves deep and lasting emotional scars on those left behind—scars that Janine believes will take more than time to heal.